Kanino?

Itinanong ko sa iyo
noon kung kanino ka
maaawa:

Sa nag-alay ng lubos
o sa kanyang nagtaboy
sa handog at nagkaila.

Ang Ayaw Ko Tuwing Kapaskuhan

PESTENG TRAFFIC. Daig pa ang mga balang sa palayan kung mamerwisyo.

Lumuwas ako noong isang araw para umattend ng party sa Maynila. Lagi kong ginagawa iyon, apat na taon na. Pero nito lang ako nakaranas ng ganoong katinding traffic. Mula ala-una ng hapon hanggang alas-siete ng gabi ang naging byahe ko. Yaong karaniwang tatlong oras na biyahe, naging anim. Mabuti na lang at pasko at medyo mahaba ang pasensya ko, kundi kinain ko na yung paslit na kasama ng babaeng katabi ko sa bus. Sobrang likot, maya't maya tinapakan ang pantalon kong nanlimahid dahil sa sandalyas nya. Kapag ako nagkaanak at kailangang isama sa byahe, sasaksakan ko muna ng ketamine para walang malay.

Ayos na sana, aircon naman. Kaso matapos kong bumaba sa Megamall para maghanap ng banyo (habang naglalakad na parang si Jason Bourne sa Waterloo Station, south entrance), at sumakay ng bus papuntang Quezon City, napurnada na. Sobrang traffic na naman. Isa't kalahating oras akong nakatayo sa salimuot ng pagsakay ng bus sa rush hour. Yung puti kong kamiseta, puta na. Dirty white -- LITERAL. Masikip. Mausok. Maalikabok. Madumi.

Dumating ako sa venue namin nang nanggigitata na. Iwas ako agad sa mga dalagang nagtangkang humalik sa pisngi ko habang nakataas ang kamay at nagsasabing "Hep! Oiliness to ugliness ako. Mamaya na lang." Mabuti na lang at maraming pagkain, matapos ang halos 8 oras kong pakikipagbuno sa trapiko ay pinuno ko naman ng bihon, adobo, lechon, puto at dinuguan ang sikmura ko, habang sumasagot sa mga tanong na:

"Bakit ngayon ka lang?"

"San ka galing?"

"Diretso ka ba mula Quezon?"

"Bakit nakakunot agad ang noo mo?"

"Gift ko, asan na?"

"Kumusta ang trabaho?"

"Sinong nililigawan mo ngayon? Estudyante?"

"Hindi mo na ba talaga ako mahal?"

"Ayaw mo nitong lollipop?"

"T-back, hipster, o see-through?"

"Ano ulit? Pneumonoultramicroscopicsilicovolcanoconiosis?"

Mabuti naman at nairaos ko ang araw na wala akong pinagbabalingan ng sama ng loob. Sa susunod na taon, ayaw ko nang lumuwas nang ganoong petsa kapag mataas na ang araw. Maigi pang pumunta na lang ako ng Baguio, ganoon din katagal. Kinabukasan, maayos naman ang biyahe pabalik ng Lucena, mga apat na oras lang dahil sa traffic, at maigi ring may katabi akong magandang binibining alumna ng UST. Masayang kasama, kahit na mukha siyang nagtanan na hindi sinipot ng kabiyak sa dami ng dala.

***

Mapagpalayang pasko

Balbas

Sa mga hindi nakakakita sa akin nang matagal na, hindi pa ako nag-aahit, mga magtatatlong linggo na.As in hindi lang balbas, pati bigote at sideburns. Intentionally untidy ang mukha ko. Tuloy, ang mga tanong ng mga kaibigan, estudyante, at katrabaho.

***
Co-Faculty1: Sir, bakit naman ganyan ang hitsura mo?
Zaldy: Bakit?
Co-Faculty1: Ang pangit kasi pag ang haba ng balbas mo.
Zaldy: Lalo naman siguro ikaw, pag may balbas...
Co-Faculty1&2: hahaha!

***
Student1: Hi sir! May klase ka?
Zaldy: Wala pa.
Student 2: Ano'ng oras?
Zaldy: 2:30 pa nga eh, kakainip.
Student 2: Ahh...
Student1: Ano ba yan sir, ang amos mo na!
Zaldy: Ha? Amos ka dyan, hindi naman ako kumain.
Student2: Hindi yun, mag-ahit ka na kasi.
Zaldy: Pengeng pambili ng pang-ahit.
Student1: Nge!
Zaldy: Wala ka pala eh...
Student1: Pa-beso na lang.
Zaldy: Ha?
Student1: Sige na!
(rolls eyes and concedes)

***

(Sa bilihan ng banana que)

Teenage Friend(TF): Hi sir!
Zaldy: Hello girl.
TF: Kumusta naman yang banana que mo sir?
Zaldy: Drop that "sir", kilala mo na kaya ako noon pa bago ako maging prof.
TF: Hmp, ok.
Zaldy: Yan.
TF: Bakit naman ganyan ang mukha mo?
Zaldy: Bakit, may dumi?
TF: Maduming tingnan!
Zaldy: How?
TF: Ayan o! (holds zaldy's face, pulls him near a little) Ang gaspang na kaya. Mag-ahit ka na kasi...
Zaldy: (reflexively holds her waist, then checks himself) Yes, yes, I'd get to that some other time.
TF: Promise?
Zaldy: Promise. Oh ayan na yung tita mo, sumabay ka na (removes her hands)
TF: Ok! bye!
Zaldy: Bye.

***

Zaldy: Hoy babaeng lupa! May sayaw ba kayo?
Girl: Oo sir, sa 3. Nuod ka ha! Di ka nanuod nung sa convention center, dapat doon manuod ka.
Zaldy: Saan ba? A que hora?
Girl: Ha? sa Enverga gym. Hapon daw eh. Wag mo nga akong gamitan ng spanish.
Zaldy: Hayaan mo na, mukha ka namang Española.
Girl: Bakit ganyan hitsura mo?
Zaldy: Ha?
Girl: Mag-ahit ka na kaya...
Zaldy: Wala ngang pambili ng pang-ahit.
Girl: Magkano ba yun?
Zaldy: Php260. Yung Gilette Mach 3.
Girl: Sosyal! Hahaha
Zaldy: hahaha. Mag-aahit ako sa bertdey ko.
Girl: Kailan naman yun?
Zaldy: Sa May, hahaha
Girl: Hindi nga?
Zaldy: Sa December.
Girl: Talaga? Lapit na ah, anong date?
Zaldy: Basta mga 3 weeks from now.
Girl: SIge tingnan ko sa friendster.
Zaldy: Bye. May klase na ako.
Girl: Bye sir!

***

Mabuti na lang at hindi pa ako namememohan ng admin namin dahil sa hitsura ko. Hell, nagagawa ko naman ang trabaho ko kahit balasarado ako ah!

Dread

This entry is in response to Arvin’s latest post, kind of.

IMAGINE THIS:

You're in your room, alone. With you is a 6-inch knife. You hold it and point it to yourself, your gut. Then you tell yourself, "What if I stab myself? What would happen? So what? Is there something to stop me from doing so?"

Nothing is holding you back. It's risk. It's freedom. It’s dreadful.

***

There are times that we feel paradoxically upset and scared when we are faced with something and that we have to act upon it. Especially if we have absolutely NO ONE to blame for it, no one accountable for that action, that if we mess up we’ll be the one in deep shit. Paradoxically because, most of us consciously think that we don’t need and we don’t want other people controlling our lives. What most people don’t realize is that its anguish when there’s no one accountable for our own actions, if we would be the only one blamable.

It’s terrible if nothing’s predetermined, horrible if there’s nothing to stop us from committing something, awful if on our every action, we’re all ALONE.

That is why many people would rather follow blindly the dictates of society, not realizing, or even thinking, that there are times that reality is irrelevant. Few people would find time to think what they really want, career, education, relationship etc, because they’re too scared to face the consequences. If one would only look on the “Consumer-cialization” of education, the point would be more obvious than the sun on a summer noon. Rather than exercise their free will, a lot of people foolishly let themselves be swept away by the trends of society.

Freedom obviously entails risk, and calls for the individual to be responsible for his/her actions. If you want to be able to go out freely on a Saturday night, you have to be responsible of what would happen. Parental permissions, assignments, knife fights, snipers, rape. If you want democracy, engage in healthy socio-political discourses. If you want something to change, go ahead and participate in changing it. A lot of people are clamoring for change and progress, but they’re not willing to get their lazy asses off their couches to contribute, too static not to leave their comfort zones, too scared to stand up for what they really believe in, for what is RIGHT.

Which brings me to another horrible truth: a lot of people don’t really think nowadays.

This ain't good

I took up a colorgenerics test at http://goldinuniverse.com/, twice, and these are the results.
I think I got too identified with Hugh Laurie's character, Dr. House.
This is not good, for now.

***

the first one is:

Is it that you are working - or even playing - too hard? Because it would seem that you are experiencing a great deal of pent-up emotion at this time which could possibly take effect and lead to irrational behaviour.

You are very self-sufficient and methodical. You presume to know where you are going but need to find a person who will recognise the way you are, not be too demanding and who is, as they say in Italy, 'Simpatico'.

You honestly believe that your hopes and ideas are realistic, but there seems to be no one around to give you the necessary reassurance and encouragement. You are egocentric. You believe that you are always 'right' - well maybe you are but you have a short fuse and are likely to take offence for the slightest reason.

You are holding back. You need to find friends in whom you can trust and once they have proved themselves beyond all possible doubt you will be prepared to give them your all. The existing situation is not of your liking - you have an unsatisfied need for mental stimulation with others whose standards are as high as your own. Trying to control your instincts the way you do restricts your ability to open up to others and the way you feel at this time is suggestive of 'total surrender'. This is not to your liking as you consider such thoughts as weaknesses that need to be overcome. You feel that only by control, controlling your innermost thoughts, are you able to maintain your air of superiority. You want to be admired for yourself alone and not for what you can do or for what you may have done. In essence 'you need to be needed' and at the same time 'you need to need'.

The need for admiration and to be regarded as 'someone special' is perhaps one of the foremost aims in your life at this time. You would like to perhaps do something outrageous or anything that will give you the chance to be recognised as someone special. This desire has now almost become an obsession and in your own way you are trying to fulfil this 'complex' by ensuring you are the centre of attention, both at work or play, or in the home. Stop trying so hard and you will find that people will like you for who you are - not for who you are pretending to be.

the second one is here:

You feel as if you have missed out on a great deal that life had to offer and you go about trying to make up for past failures. Naturally at times you get depressed and you try to compensate for your 'missed opportunities' by living your life to the full. This is what, perhaps, may be described as 'living with exaggerated intensity'. In this way you feel you can break the chains of the past and start again - and it could be that you are right.

You are very self-sufficient and methodical. You presume to know where you are going but need to find a person who will recognise the way you are, not be too demanding and who is, as they say in Italy, 'Simpatico'.

You honestly believe that your hopes and ideas are realistic, but there seems to be no one around to give you the necessary reassurance and encouragement. You are egocentric. You believe that you are always 'right' - well maybe you are but you have a short fuse and are likely to take offence for the slightest reason.

You are holding back. You need to find friends in whom you can trust and once they have proved themselves beyond all possible doubt you will be prepared to give them your all. The existing situation is not of your liking - you have an unsatisfied need for mental stimulation with others whose standards are as high as your own. Trying to control your instincts the way you do restricts your ability to open up to others and the way you feel at this time is suggestive of 'total surrender'. This is not to your liking as you consider such thoughts as weaknesses that need to be overcome. You feel that only by control, controlling your innermost thoughts, are you able to maintain your air of superiority. You want to be admired for yourself alone and not for what you can do or for what you may have done. In essence 'you need to be needed' and at the same time 'you need to need'.

You really like doing what you do and, more than that, you like yourself. Your attitude to work and to life is that 'If its not fun - then don't do it'. You want to be liked and respected, not for who you are but for what you are - and it seems to be working.

First Day

Tinatamad talaga akong pumasok kanina. At dahil nga alam kong wala namang saysay ang araw na to sa trabaho ko, nagpasya akong magpadala sa peer pressure nina Boris at Johann kagabi na "magpaantok." Euphemism lang namin yun sa pag-inom ng beer, bale naka-isang mucho kaming tatlo tapos tig-iisang San Mig Light na room temperature. Walang pulutan.

***
Alas siete ang kaisa-isang subject ko kanina. Rizal. Pag-akyat ko sa classroom, walang tao dahil naka-lock ang pinto. Kaya ayun, tumambay muna ako sa library na ilang talampakan lamang ang layo sa room na assigned sa akin. 5, 10, 15, 30mins, 1 hour. Pabalik-balik ako sa room na yon. Wala pa ring tao at hindi bukas ang room. Nang sumapit ang 8:30, bumaba na ako sa faculty room dahil tapos na ang klase ko doon. Eksaktong dating naman ng coordinator ng course na tinuturuan ko, bakit daw wala ako sa classroom. Sinabi ko ang dahilan at ang ginawa ko tungkol doon. Dapat daw kumuha ako ng susi sa guard, eh ano ba namang malay ko doon? Wala rin naman akong pagtatanungan na co-faculty dahil maaga pang masyado at wala rin namang nag-suggest.

***
Dumating naman ang coordinator ko at hinahanap ako, bakit daw wala ako doon sa room kaninang klase ko. Siyempre inulit ko lang yung kinwento ko kanina. Nasisi pa ako kasi 7:00 daw ang klase ko tapos before 7:10 daw ako pumasok dun sa room. Eh hindi nga kasi ako pwedeng pumasok dahil SARADO. Apat hanggang limang beses akong pabalik-balik sa room na yun pero sarado. Kung bakit naman kasi hindi pa nila pinabubuksan eh alam nilang may klase na. At alam ng lahat ng tao sa eskwelahan na first day pa lang kaya wala pang masyadong magpapapasok, orientation pa lang sa klase. Ako pa ang nasisi sa sablay na sistema. Give me a BREAK.

***
Ang galing ng buena-mano ko ngayong semestre, at may pakiwari akong hindi ito ang huli, na masusundan at masusundan pa ito

Babala: Hindi ito Maganda

Nakakasawa nang maging mabait.

Seryoso.

Minsan kasi, yung mga binibigay mong bagay e mawawala na sa 'yo. Tulad na nga lang ng bait.

***

CONGRATULATIONS. YOU HAVE, AT LAST, PROVEN ME WRONG. KNOW HOW?

You made me think that maybe, maybe this time, people, friends, are more important and worthy than my ideals. But in your case, it's not. You're not. I bypassed the rules because of you and what did you do? Binalewala mo. At isang buwan mo nang itinatanggi sa akin yan. Pero guess what? Its not about what you say, its about what you do. Sabi ko kay Mai timw would tell kung tama ang ginawa ko. Ang bilis ng resulta: HINDI PALA.

Hindi na talaga ako maglalalapit sa mga taong hindi nag-iisip.

Fuck the weak. Sideways. Kung gago akong prof, ibabagsak kita. Pero suerte ka at hindi yun ang lumabas sa computation. Unlike you, numbers don't lie. I have been opening doors for you every step of the way because I'm a friend but you keep slamming them shut. Don't worry, I won't be doing that anymore. EVER. Kagaya ka na rin ng umabuso sa yo noon, kaya yun din ang ginawa mo sa akin. Hindi ka pala talaga nadadala. Pinagbigyan na nga kita, gusto mo pang makalusot sa katamaran mo. At huwag na huwag mong itatanong kung ano ba ang nagawa mo, dahil linuraan mo lang naman ako sa mukha.

Magsama kayong dalawa ng katipan mong wala nang respeto sa akin bilang kaibigan o kahit guro man lamang. Good luck na lang sa pagtatago ng relasyon ninyo, hindi tanga ang mga taga-school. Estudyante man o faculty. Halatang kayo na.

At ikaw, huwag kang double standard. Nakuha mo na nga ang kutson, pati lahat ng unan, gusto mo pa? I have been preventing this grief from turning into hatred, but you're pushing me too far. Gusto mo pala ng indifference, why can't tell it to my face, ha, my former favorite student? Bakit kailangang sabihin mo pa sa iba? Huwag kang mag-alala, dahil in transition na ako papunta doon. Hatred muna, tapos indifference na. Noong una, akala ko tiwala lang sa akin ang nawala, pati respeto pala. Pag nag-siezure ka sa proximity ko, sige papakialaman kita, susubuan kita ng wallet para naman hindi mo makagat yang dila mong wala nang ginawang maganda kundi sumabay sa mood ng pagtaas ng kilay mo. Ubos na ang bait ko, mind you.

If you don't want to have any connections with me anymore, then why the hell are you expecting courtesy from me? I won't stoop to your level of hypocrisy. You turned your back then when I arrived, then you expect me to be nice? I was always trying to resolve conflicts OPENLY, in a dialogue, yet you're always hiding something beneath your sleeves to stab me with. Like using my name as an adjective, as a common noun, like I'm some merciless fool who skins babies. I opened myself to you, and you just jammed your knife into my chest when I was wide open.

Tama ang sinabi ng kaibigan nyo, sana mapagtanto ninyo na ngang dalawa na lahat ng ginawa at sinabi namin ay tama at para sa inyo, bago pa kayo iwanan ng mga kaibigan ninyo. Huwag kang mag-alala, hindi lang ako ang may ganitong sentimyento. At huwag na kayong bumanat pa, dahil hindi ninyo alam kung ano ang kaya kong gawin. HUwag nyo nang subukin pang saktan ako ulit dahil baka gumanti na ako.

Sayang at nagtapos ang semestre na ganito ang nangyari sa atin. Pero napapaisip ako, naging magkaibigan nga ba talaga tayo?

Huwag na ninyong sagutin, at iikot lang ang mata ko.

Tough Love

Nawasak ako nung last week, ngunit napagtanto kong sila pala ang wasak. Hahaha

****

TOUGH LOVE

~ If something is painful, it doesn’t mean that it’s wrong. Masakit ang injection sa rabies. Kung mapait ang gamot, hindi nito ikinakaila ang bisa. Hindi nagiging tama ang mga kaawa-awa. Kadalasan, pag may masakit, may mali sa nakakaramdam nito.

~ Feelings don’t matter as long as something enabled you to be aware. It’s a actually a cheap price for consciousness. Feelings only matter as long as it drives us to do what is right.

~ Kaya tayo binigyan ng isip para mag-isip, ng pakiramdam para makiramdam, ng kakayanang magpasya upang malaman ang tama at mali. Sa mga nasasapak ko ng mga katotohanang ito, hindi ko ipapagpaumanhin ang mga nabulabog kong konsensya.

~ I don’t do things for the mere enjoyment of those around me. Eh di sana nagpaka-standup comedian na lang ako o nag-aral ako ng pagiging payaso.

~Risk enables us to survive. If you trust, there’s the risk of betrayal. If you care, there’s the risk of being taken for granted. Hindi ibig sabihin nito na iiwas ka na. Without taking these risks, would we ever live truly as humans?

~ Perseverance doesn’t equal worthiness. But it could be the prerequisite.

~ I should try to teach lessons, not students. (addendum?)

~ Do not scrutinize wisdom in academic debates and intellectual masturbation, it will lose its purity. Wisdom is like seeing clearly and doing accordingly.

~ Unconditional Love is bullshit. There’s always an exchange, equal or not. Ipokrita (o tanga) ka kung hindi ka umaasa ng kapalit sa anumang paraan o anyo.

~ Hindi madaling maniwala sa tama, gaano man kadali sa tingin ng ibang tao. At higit na mas mahirap manindigan dito. May naiitsa-puera, nasisirang pagkakaibigan, nabubulabog na katahimikan, naba-blacklist sa kumpanya, nasisisante, sinusunog sa harap ng madla, pinapatay sa Bagumbayan o kaya ay pinapako sa krus. Kung makakilala ka ng taong ganoon, nakapagaling mo kung hindi mo siya hihiwalayan.

~ Iba talaga ang mabait sa mabuti. May narinig ako noon na napakababait daw ng mga UST graduates dahil hindi sila nagrereklamo sa trabaho. Anak ng tinapang gubat, NAKAKAHIYA!

~ Hindi dahil mahirap, imposible. Lalo na kung kailangan itong gawin, talikuran mo man ang iyong sarili. Kung mahirap, pwede mo itong iwanan at piloting hindi pakinggan ang kulbit ng konsensya mo at panghihinayang. O pwede mo naman itong paghirapan at tahimik na matulog sa gabi.

~ Dumarating talaga ang pagkakataong magkakaroon lang ng saysay ang mga ginagawa mo, hindi ang sinasabi o iniisip lamang. Malay ba ng iba kung totoo yun, hindi ba?

~ Hindi ka pagtatakdaan o lilimitahan ng iba hangga’t hindi mo ito ginagawa sa iyong sarili. Kung may dapat mang sisihin sa pagkakagapos mo sa kung anuman, ikaw muna yon.

~ Kung papalpak sa mga ginagawa mo, siguraduhing solo ka lang sa hukay ng salimuot. Pwede ka naming humingi ng tulong sa kaibigan mo kapag nandoon ka na eh.

~ Ikaw ang una at huling makakaalam o makakadama kung gumagawa ka ng mabuti o niloloko mo lang ang sarili mo. Hubdan ang sarili sa katotohanan.

~ You cannot give what you do not have. So stop pretending, life is too short for it.

~ Kung may tama kang paninindigan, hindi na mahalaga ang lahat. Kung wala naman, wala nang halaga ang lahat. Magulo ano? Mas magulo kapag hindi mo ito mauunawaan.

~ What I give is tough love. Tough, hard-earned love. Kung babasahin mo ang personality type ko ayon kay Carl Jung (Individualistic Doer), baka medyo mahiwatigan mo pa. Pwede mong isiping pauso o imbento ko lang ito. Ngunit natutunan ko ito hindi lang sa paaralan, mga libro, mga kaibigan o guro kundi sa lipunang ginagalawan ko.

Absent Minded

Lately, scenarios like these are happening to me.

***
SCENE 1

Student: Sir, pwede pa po bang kumuha ng exam?

Zaldy: At bakit hindi ka pa nakakakuha?

Student: Kasi sir wala pa po akong permit.

Zaldy: Ok, kaya mong mag-exam mamaya?

Student: Opo, ok lang po sir.

Zaldy: Fine. See me in the library after lunch.

Student: Thanks po.

Zaldy: Teka, bakit ba hindi ka kumuha last week?

Student: Sir? Nasabi ko na po sa inyo...

Zaldy: Ha? Ano nga ulit?

Student: Yung sa permit po.

Zaldy: Ah, ok ok.


SCENE 2

Zaldy: Saan tayo natapos last meeting?

Class: Sir sa kabiguan po ni Rizal sa Madrid.

Zaldy: Ah, so ano na ang kasunod na topic?

Class: Yun pong paghihiwalay nila ni Leonor Rivera.

Zaldy: {discusses the topic} Questions?

Class: ...

Zaldy: Excuse me, may tumatawag lang sa akin. {answers phone}

Class: {Murmur, murmur, murmur}

Zaldy: Ok, so where did we stopped last meeting?

Class: Ha? Sir naman, nadiscuss na nga yung next topic eh!

Zaldy: Alam ko naman yun ah!

***


According to Freudian psychoanalysis, absent-minded people are invariably thinking about sex. Being a psychology instructor, it bothers me to some extent. It seems that I HAVE been thinking about it, lately. Dahil lang siguro sa kalamigan, hahaha!

Sa Pantalan

SA PANTALAN

Joseph de Luna Saguid

*

Ikatlong gabi.

Kay babaw ng kanilang tulog,

nakasalansan sa kongkretong

sahig ng pantalan.

Kaliwa't kanan ang kanilang pagbiling,

laging nagugulat sa kinamumulatang

mukha ng kapuwa nag-aabang.

*

Sa pagbabalik sa ibabaw ng tubig,

pinakakawalan ng mga sumisid

ang bunton ng kanilang hininga,

ang pangambang naipon sa mga baga.

Basahin sa kanilang mukha

ang katotohanang magiging lihim

ng dagat sa paglipas ng panahon.

Basahin sa kanilang mukha

ang mga salitang hindi maiwika

sa ilalim ng tubig: ang pag-ayaw

(kung maaari lamang suwayin ang utos)

sa muli't muling paglusong

upang maiahon ang trahedya

ng habampanahon.

*

Naidaong na ang lahat

ng mga bangkay.

Patuloy ang pagkaagnas

sa loob ng mga itim na bag,

nakasalansan sa kongkretong

sahig ng pantalan.

Hawak ang larawan, hinahanap

ng mga kamag-anak ang minamahal.

Walang mukhang maiharap

sa kanila ang mga patay.

Kung Paano Pa Maaaring Maunawaan Ang Diyos

Kung Paano Pa Maaaring Maunawaan Ang Diyos
Joseph deLuna Saguid


Nang sa wakas mapasakamay ko ang pinakamalaking tinapay na nakita
Sa isang panaderya, hindi ako nagkasya sa basta na lamang pagtitig.
Kaya't pinaglakbay ko ang kanang palad sa kabuuan nito. Magaspang
Ang mga kumpol ng asukal, makinis ang mga ilang bahagi sa ibabaw.
Magandang tingnan ang tinapay bagaman walang tiyak na hugis anupa't
Napag-iisip pa ako ng ilang di-tiyak na hugis na maaari nitong maging
Anyo. Inilapit ko din ito sa aking ilong. Inamoy at wala akong naamoy
Na tiyak na amoy, ngunit mabango ang munti nitong pagkasunog. Kay-
Laki ng tinapay sa aking mga kamay ngunit walang pinagkaiba sa
Karaniwang tinapay na kailangang pagpira-pirasuhin upang magkasya
Sa buka ng bibig. Kaya't pinagpira-piraso ko ang tinapay. Nahulog sa
Kalsada ang pinakamaliliit na piraso sa pagkasira ng walang-hugis nitong
Anyo. Naisip ko, para sa mga langgam. Isinubo ko ang isang pirasong
Tamang-tama lamang sa maliit na buka ng aking bibig. Ang isang piraso,
Ibinigay ko sa taong-grasa kahit pa hindi siya nagsasalita para humingi
Ng kahit ano. Naisip ko lang, basta bigyan siya ng tinapay. Ibinukas niya
Ang kanang kamay para tanggapin ang tinapay. Sandali niya itong tiningnan,
At tulad ko, dinama, inamoy, at pinira-piraso—bago itinapon sa kanal.

Individualistic Doer (this second word rings another bell to me...)

Got this one from Nachi. How come she always finds interesting things like this? Idol!

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Individualistic Doer (ID)

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Individualistic Doers are self-assured and very independent persons. They are quiet and realistic, very rational, extremely matter of fact persons. They strongly cultivate their individualism and enjoy applying their abilities to new tasks. But they are also very spontaneous and impulsive persons who like to follow their sudden inspirations. Individualistic Doers are good and precise observers who register everything which goes on around them. However, they are not so sensitive as regards interpersonal relations and are surprised when they occasionally rub someone up the wrong way with their direct and blunt manner. They are not particularly fond of obligations; but if you give them space, they are uncomplicated, sociable and cheerful individuals.

Individualistic Doers enjoy challenges - action and the odd kick are simply part of their life. They love tempting fate and many people of this type have risky hobbies such as skydiving or bungee jumping. This also applies to their workaday life. Individualistic Doers are in top form in critical situations; they can grasp situations, make decisions and take the necessary steps extremely quickly. Hierarchies and authorities impress them very little; if a superior is not competent, they will have little respect for him. Individualistic Doers like to take on responsibility. They have a marked sense of reality and always find the most suitable and expedient solution for a problem. They resolve conflicts openly and directly; here, they sometimes lack tact but are also very good at taking criticism themselves.

As friends, Individualistic Doers are loyal and devoted; they only have a few friendships but many of them last a lifetime. People enjoy talking to them because of their optimistic attitude to life and their ability to listen. However, they prefer to talk about mutual interests and hobbies rather than about theoretical or philosophical issues - they are not tangible enough for them. They need a lot of freedom and time to themselves in love relationships but, at the same time, they are also very tolerant towards their partners. It happens very seldom that Individualistic Doers fall head over heels in love. They are far too rational. They prefer to pick their partner on the basis of mutual interests and preferences which they want to share with that partner. Individualistic Doers are not particularly fond of effusive outbursts of emotion. They prefer to prove their love by their actions and expect the same of their partner. Whoever wishes to tie an Individualistic Doer to himself needs a lot of patience. It takes some time before this personality type is willing to get involved with another person.

On Identity and Attraction

While I was nearing our house from school Thursday last week, I saw a girl standing outside our gate. I peeked over her umbrella and saw her face and was surprised that she's a student of mine. I invited her over to our apartment because it was nearing noon and the sun was power-tripping again. After settling down on the sofa, I asked her what on earth is she doing there and she told me our guy neighbor is her "bestfriend" and they had a fight (I didn't believe that they're only that). She seemed to be so into him that she immediately replaced his SIM card because of what happened which I didn't cared to explore anyway because I was so sure of its LAMENESS.

Before I slept later that night, I had an verifying epiphany while drinking my tea.


IF YOU WANT YOUR ROMANTIC DEVOTION TO ANOTHER PERSON BE RECIPROCATED AND MAKE YOU HAPPY, DEVOTE MORE TIME TO YOURSELF.

Healthy people (personality-wise) are more attracted and are more in love with someone who has a concrete identity, who has things really going on with one's life. Ergo, those who are, by themselves, sufficient enough and "complete".

It's better of someone would be with you not because that person needs you, but because that person WANTS to be with you.
I've seen countless people who devote their whole selves to the point that they'd leave their friends for that special someone and get dumped. It shows NEEDINESS, superficial neediness.


Needs that aren't really there. The need to be hugged. The need to be complimented. The need to be stroked with kindness every minute everyday. The need to have sex. The need to be given gifts (which usually are impractical and useLESS ones). The need to be given flowers (the plant's vagina). The need to have someone to ask them "kumain ka na?" or "nakauwi ka na?" The need to be taken care of. The need to have a relationship, no matter what. The need to be needed.

Have you ever experienced of quarelling or fighting with someone special (and its his fault) and the reconciliation is lubricated by him buying you flowers? His fault magically seems to disappear. Props like gifts are sweeter, but practical things are more sincere. Have you ever forgotten everything she did because of some hug or nibbling on your ear? It sucks.

Want a healthy relationship with a healthy partner? Get a LIFE! There's tons to talk about, enjoy, do and experience with people who have their own lives. Improving yourself for another person is LAME, especially if it's because of romance. Improve yourself because you want to, for yourself is the first and last one to appreciate that. Not him. Not her. Not even God. Not being needy makes someone wanted, as paradoxical or ironic as it may sound.

Go fix yourself before you sell your wares to the dating pool. Go fix yourself because you want to, not because of that someone. Because if that someone leaves, someone would be sprawled on the floor like a 10-foot Uno Stacko that just collapsed.

The Hierophant

You are The Hierophant

Divine Wisdom. Manifestation. Explanation. Teaching.

All things relating to education, patience, help from superiors.The Hierophant is often considered to be a Guardian Angel.

The Hierophant's purpose is to bring the spiritual down to Earth. Where the High Priestess between her two pillars deals with realms beyond this Earth, the Hierophant (or High Priest) deals with worldly problems. He is well suited to do this because he strives to create harmony and peace in the midst of a crisis. The Hierophant's only problem is that he can be stubborn and hidebound. At his best, he is wise and soothing, at his worst, he is an unbending traditionalist.

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Stupid Assumptions

I was checking my students' research papers earlier and 7 of them had the same copies of one paper. They cheated, assuming that I won't be reading their papers. Ergo, 0, not 50, not 70 but 0. Then I read Joyce's blog and her friends opposition to what I said. Then I started thinking of some stupid assumptions by many people, which I have realized time and time again through testing it via ethnomethodological breaching (If you want, you can check that out by searching ethnomethodology's breaching experiments in the internet).



1.) Being NICE doesn't equal being good, just like speaking po and opo doesn't equal respect.

2.) The best things in life, contrary to popular and cliche-ish quotes, ain't for free. You get them in exchange for other very significant things, most of which we don't notice that we are clinging onto it.

3.) People who think that they should avoid conflict as much as possible must be stabbed in the eye. They have it coming always because of avoiding it.

4.) Don't trust the villagers, trust those who are in the same path as you are, those who are impartial to what you are experiencing. You don't serve sugar-coated sugar-flavored sugar balls to kids who have bad teeth. Hindi ka maglalagay ng asin sa patis. Don't confuse what's needed with what's being wanted. You'd be surprised to know that the opinion of people who won't really care really matter.

5.) Consenting DOES NOT equal understanding. People who readily say "naiintindihan kita" really don't unless they probe you.

6.) Just Being Yourself won't get you anywhere. And you're stupid to think that this would mean that you have to pretend.

7.) Trust, respect and other similar things must be earned. Wanting to believe the best in people ain't gonna make it true.

8.) When you hurt someone, it doesn't mean that you've done something wrong. It means there IS something wrong and you just found it. Only then can you know what's the right thing to do.

9.) "Depende sa tao yan" is one of the lamest excuse for not taking responsibility and thinking about what you do. There is no such thing as the "my world, your world", only one world exists (and dont bring me that alternate world stuff because it ain't gonna matter here and I don't care about it).

10.) "Kung kayo talaga, kayo talaga" is bull, and is the lamest excuse I could think of at the moment for not taking responsibility and using your God-given faculties to do something constructive.

11.) People are stupid. By that, you could see how they outgrow it and become wise.

12.) Understanding a situation without doing anything about it is useless. Acceptance therefore is genuine if you're working your ass off to get over it

13.) Unless you're in a coma, don't leave everything to God. He's already so busy with all prayers, complaints, requests and even curses. That's why He gave you the ability to think, which really would make you smart or smarter.

14.) Perseverance doesn't mean worthiness.

15.) Making up excuses is for stupid people and cowards, taking up responsibility is for smart ones. When people won't stand up to do what's required, what's right, trouble escalates to the benefit of no one.



As Dr. House said, "You can think I'm wrong, but that's no reason to stop thinking."

Get it Going

From Dneero. GO answer it!

Who's Fit?

Another "Who's Fit" convo from dneero

Ikaw

Oo, ikaw nga. Ikaw na tinatawag kong kasali sa Lindsay Lohan Generation.

Ikaw na nasasakop ng karaniwang salitang “kabataan”, ikaw na nakaasa pa rin sa magulang at tinatamasa ang mga karaniwang kumakalupkop sa walang saysay. Sasabihin ko ito sa iyo: kaiba ang likás sa normal. Hindi ito ang kaligayahan. Nagkakamali ka, kaya’t tumungo ka paminsan-minsan at huwag laging tingala at baka ka matisod.

Mag-isip ka kung ano talaga ang iyong nais, kung gusto mo ba talaga ito o pinahihintulutan mo lang ang dikta ng iba. At huwag mong ipagmamalaki na ito talaga ang gusto mo dahil kadalasan, hindi mo alam ang iyong sinasabi. Isip ang gamit sa pag-iisip at hindi pangarap.

Nag-aaral ka para matuto, hindi upang mag-trabaho.

At wala kang dahilan para hindi mag-aral ng mabuti kung pinapag-aral ka naman. Madali lang naman ang buhay, bawat karapatan ay may katapat na tungkulin. Kung karapatan mong mag-aral, tungkulin mong itaya ang buhay mo rito. Suportado ka ng mga sumusuporta sa ‘yo, kaya dapat lang na mag-aral ka ng maigi, di lang sa silid-aralan kundi pati sa labas. Iharap mo sa akin ang isang taong walang pakialam sa kaalaman at hindi lang salita ko ang tatarak sa kanyang tenga.

Hindi lahat ng pagtatakda ay nakasisiil.

Ikaw ang pinaka-masagana sa panahon at kakayahan, huwag mo itong tiimin sa kahunghangan ng media. Huwag na huwag mo ring ipagkakamali ang pahintulot sa pagkakaunawa at ang mabait sa mabuti. Tandaang inaakit tayo ng kagandahan palihis sa daan ng katotohanan. Kung sinasabi mong wala kang pakialam sa sinasabi ng iba, panindigan mo ito at huwag kang maki-uso. Nagkakasala ang sinumang nakayapos sa ilusyon ng sariling pagkakakilanlan. Hindi ikaw ang iyong kabuuan.

Who's Fit?

Get it going with dNeero

Refresher, hahaha!

Not too much but… I think it’s a li’l refresher for me. Sorry about the emoricon stuff, can’t put it in the MS WORD.

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WANTED: Research Assistant

Bahay Tuluyan is a non-profit organisation working with children in need of special protection (CNSP) in the Philippines. Bahay Tuluyan is currently providing alternative education and social services for children in Manila, Laguna and Quezon, Philippines.

A report has been published by a team of Australian Volunteers documenting the indiscriminate "rescue" of street children in Manila.

In line with this, the organization is looking for 6 Research Assistants. Any interested applicant could send their resume to info@bahaytuluyan.org. The project, I was told, is to be conducted from June - November this year (As a matter of fact, I already applied and had my initial interview 2 weeks ago).


Good Luck!

Haypotalamushy

Oo, ikaw nga. Kilala mo ako, at hindi ako naghahambog. Lalong hindi nangungumbinsi. Basahin mo muna ito. Kung mababasag ka, mabuti. Kung hindi, mabuti, sana.

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Nang matapos na akong mag-aral sa kolehiyo, akala ko ay lulubayan na ako ng mga suliranin sa pag-ibig (at/o libog) ngunit hindi pala. Ayos lang naman kung nandyan sila, ngunit may mga taong sadyang hindi madala-dala o matuto. Nakakatuwa din at may pagkukumparahan ng sarili. Ayos lang din naman yun, sana ay matuto na sila/tayong lahat sa salimuot ng pag-irog, namamangka ka man sa dalawang ilog o habol lamang ay libog.

Sa nakaraang dalawang linggo ay labing-isa na ang nakakausap ko tungkol sa problema nila sa kanilang mga inspirasyon at desperasyon. Ayos din lang, may dahilan para uminom at makakilala ng magagandang dilag (at kanilang magulang!) sa cafe. Nagtataka lang ako kung bakit pa sila namomroblema sa ganitong mga bagay na tila hindi alam kung ano ang gagawin gayong sila itong:

- media saturated
- media saturated sa mga programang tungkol sa pag-ibig
- paborito ang paksang yon kahit hindi aminin
- matalino

Kung manunuod ako ng palabas, mainam na rin na kuhain ko ang mga dapat kong matutunan. Kung panunoorin ko ang "Hitch", (wala akong maisip na ibang pelikula) siyempre hindi lang ako magpapakilig doon. Oobserbahan ko ang tiwala ni Will Smith sa sarili nya, ang pagka-alpha male nya, ang tamang panahon para magsinungaling at hindi, pagtugon sa pangangailangan ng isang babae at iba pa.

Matutuwa ako at matututo.

Dapat ring mapansin natin ang mga bagay na napapaloob sa "falsification of hollywood", yung mga tipong hindi naman talaga ganoon ang nangyayari sa totoong buhay. Kadalasan kasi, yung negatibong aspeto ng pelikula o palabas ang nakukuha ng tao dahil ito ang mas madaling mapansin, e.g. iyakan at sigalot. May mga magsasabing "KJ" ang sinasabi ko dahil hindi sila masisiyahan sa pinpanood nila, ngunit magkakagayon lamang kung kakapit pa rin tayo sa pananaw (at pag-aakala) na hiwalay ang damdamin at isip. Kung mahilig ka sa drama, maigi na makakuha ka ng aral dito kung paano mareresolba ang drama na iyon. Sa aking palagay, alipin ang tao ng media kung walang konkretong pagkatuto rito. Wala akong pakialam kung marami kang ginagawa at hindi mo na kaya pang mag-isip dahil kapos ka sa panahon (na hindi maaaring mangyari pagkat hindi pag-aari ninuman ang oras), kung may mga mas mahalagang problema, makabubuting bawasan muna ang pinagkakaabalahan o palitan ng mas makabuluhan. Hindi lang leksyon ang dapat matutunan sa paaralan kundi dunong. Pakatandaang maasap ang harayang umaapaw sa luha.

Pagpagin ang ilusyong nakakapit sa hangin na sarap lamang ang dadanasin sa pag-ibig.

Mawawangis mo lamang ang sariling palad kapag bahagya na itong malayo sa iyong balintataw.

Kung takot ka sa isang bagay, makabubuting suungin mo na rin ito kaysa hindi.

Hindi lang ikaw ang nagdurusa, may mas malalaking problema sa daigdig mo.

***

Kung mababasag ka, mabuti. Kung hindi, mabuti, sana.

Kita'y uminom sa galak at hindi lamang sa alak.

egg roll muna

Got this from Anj, haha.

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1. The phone rings, who do you want it to be...
- A good job offer for me.

2 . When shopping at the grocery store, do you return your cart?
- Hindi, kasi hindi naman ako gumagamit ng cart dahil hindi umaabot ng ganun karami binibili ko.

3. If you had to kiss again the last person you kissed, would you?
- Of course. Why not?

4. Do you take compliments well?
- Yes.

5. Do you play Sudoku?
- nope

6. If abandoned alone in the wilderness would you survive?
- Yes, I'm wild. nyahaha

7 . If your house were on fire, what would be the first thing you would save?
- THING diba? My clothes.

8. Who was the last person you slept in the bed with?
- No way, we promissed not to kiss and tell eh. kekekeke

9. Who do you text the most?
- lately? Mia, Kat and some, err, teenagers.

10 . Favorite children's book?
- "Hindi Lang Pala Ilong Ang Pula Kay Rudolph"

11 . Eye color
- Dark brown

12. How tall are you?
- As tall as Bruce Lee.

13. If you could do it over again, start from scratch, would you?
- Labo nito ah.

14. Any secret admirers?
- Isa pa 'to. Haha :))

15. When was the last time you were at Olive Garden?
- Ha? Beer Garden, pwede pa.

16. Favorite place at home
- Duyan sa ilalim ng punong mangga. :]

17. Where was the farthest place you traveled?
- Bgy. Maligcong, Bontoc. I'd kill for such sceneries.

18. Do you like mustard?
- Sometimes.

19. Do you prefer to sleep or eat?
- Eat. =D

21. Do you miss anyone? who?
- Anj, Celest, Joyce, 4SCL and TWG/Flame pips. Alak pa!

22. Can you do splits?
- Nung high school, nagka-Karate pa ako nun eh.

23. What movie do you want to see right now?
- Lost in Translation

24 . What did you do for New Year's Eve?
- Cook and sleep.

25 . Do you think The Grudge was creepy?
- No, its funny.

27. Was your mom a cheerleader?
- Hinde

28. What's the last letter of your middle name?
- Z

30. How many hours of sleep do you get a night?
- 6-7

35. What do you wear to sleep?
- Summer ngayon, so shorts and shirts.

37. Is your hair straight or curly?
- Kulot, mofo

40. Do you like funny or serious people better?
- Stupid question, this.

42 . What is on your mind right now?
- Magkano kaya ang Premium?

43 . Any plans 4 tonight?
- Prepare for tomorrow's job interview.

44 . Whats your fav. song at the moment?
- Illumination by Earth, Wind and Fire

45 . Do you hate chocolate?
- Of course.

46 . What do you and your parents fight about the most?
- Roll my eyes.

47. Are you a gullible person
- Pakyu you.

48. Do you need a boyfriend/girl friend to be happy ?
- No. I don't want commitments.

49 . If you could have any job what would it be?
- Sociology or Political Dynamics professor in AB!

50. Are you easy to get along with?
- Ask yourself.

51. What is your favorite day?
- Sabado

52 . Are you generally a happy person?
- Generally? labo mehn.