Sa Pantalan

SA PANTALAN

Joseph de Luna Saguid

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Ikatlong gabi.

Kay babaw ng kanilang tulog,

nakasalansan sa kongkretong

sahig ng pantalan.

Kaliwa't kanan ang kanilang pagbiling,

laging nagugulat sa kinamumulatang

mukha ng kapuwa nag-aabang.

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Sa pagbabalik sa ibabaw ng tubig,

pinakakawalan ng mga sumisid

ang bunton ng kanilang hininga,

ang pangambang naipon sa mga baga.

Basahin sa kanilang mukha

ang katotohanang magiging lihim

ng dagat sa paglipas ng panahon.

Basahin sa kanilang mukha

ang mga salitang hindi maiwika

sa ilalim ng tubig: ang pag-ayaw

(kung maaari lamang suwayin ang utos)

sa muli't muling paglusong

upang maiahon ang trahedya

ng habampanahon.

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Naidaong na ang lahat

ng mga bangkay.

Patuloy ang pagkaagnas

sa loob ng mga itim na bag,

nakasalansan sa kongkretong

sahig ng pantalan.

Hawak ang larawan, hinahanap

ng mga kamag-anak ang minamahal.

Walang mukhang maiharap

sa kanila ang mga patay.

Kung Paano Pa Maaaring Maunawaan Ang Diyos

Kung Paano Pa Maaaring Maunawaan Ang Diyos
Joseph deLuna Saguid


Nang sa wakas mapasakamay ko ang pinakamalaking tinapay na nakita
Sa isang panaderya, hindi ako nagkasya sa basta na lamang pagtitig.
Kaya't pinaglakbay ko ang kanang palad sa kabuuan nito. Magaspang
Ang mga kumpol ng asukal, makinis ang mga ilang bahagi sa ibabaw.
Magandang tingnan ang tinapay bagaman walang tiyak na hugis anupa't
Napag-iisip pa ako ng ilang di-tiyak na hugis na maaari nitong maging
Anyo. Inilapit ko din ito sa aking ilong. Inamoy at wala akong naamoy
Na tiyak na amoy, ngunit mabango ang munti nitong pagkasunog. Kay-
Laki ng tinapay sa aking mga kamay ngunit walang pinagkaiba sa
Karaniwang tinapay na kailangang pagpira-pirasuhin upang magkasya
Sa buka ng bibig. Kaya't pinagpira-piraso ko ang tinapay. Nahulog sa
Kalsada ang pinakamaliliit na piraso sa pagkasira ng walang-hugis nitong
Anyo. Naisip ko, para sa mga langgam. Isinubo ko ang isang pirasong
Tamang-tama lamang sa maliit na buka ng aking bibig. Ang isang piraso,
Ibinigay ko sa taong-grasa kahit pa hindi siya nagsasalita para humingi
Ng kahit ano. Naisip ko lang, basta bigyan siya ng tinapay. Ibinukas niya
Ang kanang kamay para tanggapin ang tinapay. Sandali niya itong tiningnan,
At tulad ko, dinama, inamoy, at pinira-piraso—bago itinapon sa kanal.

Individualistic Doer (this second word rings another bell to me...)

Got this one from Nachi. How come she always finds interesting things like this? Idol!

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Individualistic Doer (ID)

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Individualistic Doers are self-assured and very independent persons. They are quiet and realistic, very rational, extremely matter of fact persons. They strongly cultivate their individualism and enjoy applying their abilities to new tasks. But they are also very spontaneous and impulsive persons who like to follow their sudden inspirations. Individualistic Doers are good and precise observers who register everything which goes on around them. However, they are not so sensitive as regards interpersonal relations and are surprised when they occasionally rub someone up the wrong way with their direct and blunt manner. They are not particularly fond of obligations; but if you give them space, they are uncomplicated, sociable and cheerful individuals.

Individualistic Doers enjoy challenges - action and the odd kick are simply part of their life. They love tempting fate and many people of this type have risky hobbies such as skydiving or bungee jumping. This also applies to their workaday life. Individualistic Doers are in top form in critical situations; they can grasp situations, make decisions and take the necessary steps extremely quickly. Hierarchies and authorities impress them very little; if a superior is not competent, they will have little respect for him. Individualistic Doers like to take on responsibility. They have a marked sense of reality and always find the most suitable and expedient solution for a problem. They resolve conflicts openly and directly; here, they sometimes lack tact but are also very good at taking criticism themselves.

As friends, Individualistic Doers are loyal and devoted; they only have a few friendships but many of them last a lifetime. People enjoy talking to them because of their optimistic attitude to life and their ability to listen. However, they prefer to talk about mutual interests and hobbies rather than about theoretical or philosophical issues - they are not tangible enough for them. They need a lot of freedom and time to themselves in love relationships but, at the same time, they are also very tolerant towards their partners. It happens very seldom that Individualistic Doers fall head over heels in love. They are far too rational. They prefer to pick their partner on the basis of mutual interests and preferences which they want to share with that partner. Individualistic Doers are not particularly fond of effusive outbursts of emotion. They prefer to prove their love by their actions and expect the same of their partner. Whoever wishes to tie an Individualistic Doer to himself needs a lot of patience. It takes some time before this personality type is willing to get involved with another person.

On Identity and Attraction

While I was nearing our house from school Thursday last week, I saw a girl standing outside our gate. I peeked over her umbrella and saw her face and was surprised that she's a student of mine. I invited her over to our apartment because it was nearing noon and the sun was power-tripping again. After settling down on the sofa, I asked her what on earth is she doing there and she told me our guy neighbor is her "bestfriend" and they had a fight (I didn't believe that they're only that). She seemed to be so into him that she immediately replaced his SIM card because of what happened which I didn't cared to explore anyway because I was so sure of its LAMENESS.

Before I slept later that night, I had an verifying epiphany while drinking my tea.


IF YOU WANT YOUR ROMANTIC DEVOTION TO ANOTHER PERSON BE RECIPROCATED AND MAKE YOU HAPPY, DEVOTE MORE TIME TO YOURSELF.

Healthy people (personality-wise) are more attracted and are more in love with someone who has a concrete identity, who has things really going on with one's life. Ergo, those who are, by themselves, sufficient enough and "complete".

It's better of someone would be with you not because that person needs you, but because that person WANTS to be with you.
I've seen countless people who devote their whole selves to the point that they'd leave their friends for that special someone and get dumped. It shows NEEDINESS, superficial neediness.


Needs that aren't really there. The need to be hugged. The need to be complimented. The need to be stroked with kindness every minute everyday. The need to have sex. The need to be given gifts (which usually are impractical and useLESS ones). The need to be given flowers (the plant's vagina). The need to have someone to ask them "kumain ka na?" or "nakauwi ka na?" The need to be taken care of. The need to have a relationship, no matter what. The need to be needed.

Have you ever experienced of quarelling or fighting with someone special (and its his fault) and the reconciliation is lubricated by him buying you flowers? His fault magically seems to disappear. Props like gifts are sweeter, but practical things are more sincere. Have you ever forgotten everything she did because of some hug or nibbling on your ear? It sucks.

Want a healthy relationship with a healthy partner? Get a LIFE! There's tons to talk about, enjoy, do and experience with people who have their own lives. Improving yourself for another person is LAME, especially if it's because of romance. Improve yourself because you want to, for yourself is the first and last one to appreciate that. Not him. Not her. Not even God. Not being needy makes someone wanted, as paradoxical or ironic as it may sound.

Go fix yourself before you sell your wares to the dating pool. Go fix yourself because you want to, not because of that someone. Because if that someone leaves, someone would be sprawled on the floor like a 10-foot Uno Stacko that just collapsed.

The Hierophant

You are The Hierophant

Divine Wisdom. Manifestation. Explanation. Teaching.

All things relating to education, patience, help from superiors.The Hierophant is often considered to be a Guardian Angel.

The Hierophant's purpose is to bring the spiritual down to Earth. Where the High Priestess between her two pillars deals with realms beyond this Earth, the Hierophant (or High Priest) deals with worldly problems. He is well suited to do this because he strives to create harmony and peace in the midst of a crisis. The Hierophant's only problem is that he can be stubborn and hidebound. At his best, he is wise and soothing, at his worst, he is an unbending traditionalist.

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Stupid Assumptions

I was checking my students' research papers earlier and 7 of them had the same copies of one paper. They cheated, assuming that I won't be reading their papers. Ergo, 0, not 50, not 70 but 0. Then I read Joyce's blog and her friends opposition to what I said. Then I started thinking of some stupid assumptions by many people, which I have realized time and time again through testing it via ethnomethodological breaching (If you want, you can check that out by searching ethnomethodology's breaching experiments in the internet).



1.) Being NICE doesn't equal being good, just like speaking po and opo doesn't equal respect.

2.) The best things in life, contrary to popular and cliche-ish quotes, ain't for free. You get them in exchange for other very significant things, most of which we don't notice that we are clinging onto it.

3.) People who think that they should avoid conflict as much as possible must be stabbed in the eye. They have it coming always because of avoiding it.

4.) Don't trust the villagers, trust those who are in the same path as you are, those who are impartial to what you are experiencing. You don't serve sugar-coated sugar-flavored sugar balls to kids who have bad teeth. Hindi ka maglalagay ng asin sa patis. Don't confuse what's needed with what's being wanted. You'd be surprised to know that the opinion of people who won't really care really matter.

5.) Consenting DOES NOT equal understanding. People who readily say "naiintindihan kita" really don't unless they probe you.

6.) Just Being Yourself won't get you anywhere. And you're stupid to think that this would mean that you have to pretend.

7.) Trust, respect and other similar things must be earned. Wanting to believe the best in people ain't gonna make it true.

8.) When you hurt someone, it doesn't mean that you've done something wrong. It means there IS something wrong and you just found it. Only then can you know what's the right thing to do.

9.) "Depende sa tao yan" is one of the lamest excuse for not taking responsibility and thinking about what you do. There is no such thing as the "my world, your world", only one world exists (and dont bring me that alternate world stuff because it ain't gonna matter here and I don't care about it).

10.) "Kung kayo talaga, kayo talaga" is bull, and is the lamest excuse I could think of at the moment for not taking responsibility and using your God-given faculties to do something constructive.

11.) People are stupid. By that, you could see how they outgrow it and become wise.

12.) Understanding a situation without doing anything about it is useless. Acceptance therefore is genuine if you're working your ass off to get over it

13.) Unless you're in a coma, don't leave everything to God. He's already so busy with all prayers, complaints, requests and even curses. That's why He gave you the ability to think, which really would make you smart or smarter.

14.) Perseverance doesn't mean worthiness.

15.) Making up excuses is for stupid people and cowards, taking up responsibility is for smart ones. When people won't stand up to do what's required, what's right, trouble escalates to the benefit of no one.



As Dr. House said, "You can think I'm wrong, but that's no reason to stop thinking."

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